His Fantasies Of Serving Others In Obedient Sexual Submission 

Nude Entertainment, Arousing Stipulations, Educational Sexual Displays, Oral Servitude, Group Parties

The Raw Honest Truth About Life, Thoughts About Having A Penis, Discovering The G-Spot In Every Woman  

     There is no doubt, I have a very strong leaning and inclination towards group sexual servitude.  It has always been my sexual desire to be the boy-toy to use, tease, embarrass, and derive sexual pleasure from by a Mistress and Mister ... Dominants who will lovingly show no mercy on me when it comes to pushing me beyond my comfort levels, especially when in the midst of a group of people.  Just the thought of this sexually excites me deeply.  And, as such, I've always leaned towards being the subject of sexual attention in an adult party group setting, an evening of mature, healthy friends/couples coming together for some erotic excitement through the use and misuse of their fully obligated and submitted sexual man-toy.  I have fantasized near everything in an effort to understand myself and my orientation, just what can be arousing as far as acts engaged in and in the situations I might find myself performing these acts.  I fantasize to address a deep down need to be desired and taken advantage of sexually by a group of women and men, who would find it pleasurable and fun to hold me accountable to my need and make me live it out ... in their presence and to their orgasmic benefit. 

     So, all my sexual dominants, and their friends and guests, are of course sexually healthy specimens of human development, and all motivated to push me into acts of behavior that I or they have only dreamt of doing (and are now curious and determined to find out).  In my fantasies, there are endless moments of me being naked, and naked and aroused, in the partying presence of my Mistress's home.  And, I am often assuming the role of the naked waiter, catering to the needs of everyone around me.  They are often wearing clothes, leaving me obviously singled out as the one who their sexual attention should be upon all through the night.  And, when they do get naked, it is to have me do something that is erotic and pleasuring for the woman or man who is now revealed before me, and to do this in the witnessing presence of the others so that there is no longer any doubt about the lengths I have gone to fulfill my one-night lovers' desires.  All my fantasy sex partners are mature enough to keep friendship by day in a state of lasting friendship between us, and our sex activities to the moment of its happening and as a pleasurable memory we've shared together.  This is my fantasy world on a daily basis.

    There are times in which it's all about several in the group slapping my ass to make it oh so pink with hand prints, or swacking my swollen erected cock hard in different directions just to watch it bounce back into place in response, throbbing even harder now and getting more swollen with every swack.  There are times in which it's all about softly stroking the edge of your fingernails individually and as a group up and down my body, everywhere and repeatedly for quite awhile, all to watch me buck and squirm involuntarily to the touch (I buck a lot when I'm aroused, I can't help it).  Why?  Because, I would hope that it'd be such a source of amusement for others to watch me have to endure this excitement.  There are times in which it is about grabbing me by the dick and balls (especially the dick), and guiding me to places like I'm a dog and my penis is a much needed and available leash, and telling me what to do in this dog ownership fashion.  Sometimes, I fantasize about being made to stand still in a living statue pose, and willing receive a thorough cat-o-nine tails lashing from the waist down to the knees, and in every imaginable place in-between.  Or, actually allowing myself, because I'm obligated and willing to obey, to be physically tide up for real, and just thoroughly taken advantage of by others with every hole and appendage available to explore on my body.  Yes, I dream of having to give lots of good oral sex to both women and men in my fantasies.  And, they always cum for me, filling me inside with their unique and special erotic juices.  All because I like this idea, it arouses me, and I want the taste of it in my mouth and body. 

     There are times when I fantasize about having to kneel and take it from both ends by two guys, and to have to do this in front of a group of women who are watching attentively, who are being thoroughly amused by the sight, and who are actively grading our performance!  Then, there are times when I fantasize about having to oil down, attempt to massage to their satisfaction, and even bathe a group of women.  All for their sensual pleasure, and my visual stimulation.  On a more sexual note, I have had fantasies of having to lick a woman's vaginal lips before a group of witnessing friends.  Or, having to demonstrate my orgasmic-producing penetrating talents for a woman (where she comes, but often I must refrain for her benefit and lasting pleasure), because she has decided she wants to experience exhibiting her sexual side to her friends for the first time.  Just because she's never done it and she knows that with me  she can.  So, since she has a boy-toy at this party who must do exactly as he is told. ...  Can I go back to kneeling before a throbbing cock before me, and having to suck that penis like a starved-for-milk hungry person, sucking till orgasm happens in my mouth in front of everyone?  It don't matter if my dick is hard or not at this point, though it's always more fun if it is.  It's all about the joy of being humbly exposed to the delight of a watching audience, this exhibitionist nature of mine!  There are times in my fantasies when I am required to wear a condom, and there are times when I am taken or required to perform without the barrier and told that I just have to trust them and that life will unfold as it is supposed to ... even through moments like these.  Usually, with the guys it's all about a lot of lube, and ultimately filling me up with salty sticky semen from their excited manhoods. Which, in my fantasies, I must swallow.  Just as I must swallow every drip of womanly cum that should grace my lips and tongue.  Yes, in fantasy I am quite bi and quite the sexual slut, as you can obviously read.

     There have been times when my fantasizing has taken a wild turn, and explored itself into realms that are often called exotic sex or perversion, depending on whose morals you're following.  But, though I've explored them mentally, this doesn't necessary mean I could actually do sexual acts of this sort for real.  But, until sexually subjugated in this way, I'll never really know (not that I'm asking for this, for I'm not and much prefer the more exhibitionist oriented adult-play of above).  But, sharing is what I'm doing, so even this is here for your knowledge and use.  Some examples would be being kidnapped and turned into a sexual slave of a crew on a long distance cargo liner that ain't coming back to port for a long time (used to masturbate to this one back-in-the-day while lying naked on a secluded beach), or being made to lie on my back one day and suck off to orgasm a big dog's cock for the viewing amusement of others (have a real fascination for this one that I can't explain, and in my fantasizing it's usually women that instigated this one), and even being tied down to a table or chair or the outdoors open grassy ground (held in position by stakes) and raped for hours on end by a group of strong and aggressive men (and sometimes, women and men).  These have been my darker mental fantasy explorations, where I have been the subject of experiments as to just how far others will go with me for a little sexual fun on their parts and totally at my expense, and just how far I am willing to go to submit to them.  But, as I said, these kinds of fantasies have been the rarity.  The most rare of fantasies are these, but my mind doeth explore occasionally, out of curiosity over what it would feel and be like to experience this for real, even if it were just for one time. 

     So you don't misunderstand me, let me express in a thirteen sentence paragraph the following (thirteen is a sacred number in Jewish tradition, for it equates into one): I'm not really into pain. I want to make this as clear as possible.  For any sting of any sort that is not done while I'm sexually aroused with throbbing hardness is actually a physical turn off for me.*  There has to be arousal for light tests of pain to be pleasurable to me.  Nor, am I into being abused, whether physically or mentally.  My mind, in fantasy, just tends to roll in more extreme directions at times.  And, these are the exceptions, not the norm.  I'm open to all possibilities, because of my desire to serve and experience without inhibition and without choice or regard, but ... I am most drawn to the need and the embarrassing or arousing thrill of being exhibited, whether I want this or not, all for the purposes of watching me have to deal with the tension and arousal of suddenly being placed in these moments, and knowing that I must, simply must, give into it and experience it.  This is the hidden desire and thrill behind it for me.  It's about the situational sensual and sexual servitude and about the exposure to all willing to watch me endure it for their pleasure and excitement.  From the most simple of fantasies and behaviors to the most unexpected and self-questioning.  I just wanted to be sure you understood this.

*Hence, why permanent scarring (such as tattoos) are such a no-go with me, for reasons beyond just that tradition forbids it.

     Now, in all revealing honesty, I prefer having the opportunity to experience the fantasies that I most often fantasize about, the ones that are above and below the last two paragraphs above.  And, I really want to experience more than once, even more than twice and thrice (if so blessed and possible) these more desired exhibitionist fantasies, with friends wanting a little playful and unique adult excitement together.  The fantasies that, I suspicion, many or possibly even most people fantasy about every now and then.  I want you to explore me and explore yourself, test our willingness boundaries, and do things (or, at the very least, make me do things) that, until this moment we haven't had the balls to explore yet.  I want and need to be obligated to my word to submit and do as told by friends around me, to be freely and openly sexual without the slightest inhibition (if this is actually possible).  And, I want you, my friends that know me and are mature enough to handle the experience without it complicating our friendship, to take advantage of my desire and use me accordingly.  For me, by natural design of my male brain, sex is simply and strictly sex, and it is strictly for pleasure-making and, at the times right for it, baby-making.  The emotions don't get involved until the long-term friendship and intimacy is developed between us.  And, even then, the love, loyalty, and attachment that I feel for others remains as is, with or without the sex.  Maybe I'm weird in being hardwired this way but, then again, maybe I'm just the typical everyday male. 

     Yes, we all have some kind of value system.  I am no different in this respect.  And, how I behave in my mind, in my wild and explorative world of fantasies, quite honestly, I have rarely if ever behaved in the everyday waking world.  Most people that know me, would be shocked to read this page, because they'd have difficulty believing that I would actually do these things if they created the opportunity and environment for me to do them.  Most wouldn't even expect that I think in these so bluntly sexual oriented ways.  It's partly because of my always cautious and stoic persona, I guess, that I present to the world in my daily physical behaviors around people.  Afraid to express what I really want to express, afraid to touch lest it be deemed an unwanted embrace, just plain too afraid that there will be unneeded and unwanted wrong backlash from expressing myself and how I really think, desire, and feel about things.  No matter how innocent it may be my intentions.  And, it's just been far much easier to be the semi-public closet-nudist that I am already, and to keep my erotic desires to myself.  Which, unfortunately, leads to considerable sexual lack of satisfaction in my life.  I love my wife, and this is another reason.  Not that we ever agreed to be monogamous towards each other, because we have not made such an agreement.  But, I am hardwired for group situational sex by in-born nature.  And, though it pleasures me oh so deeply to bring her to as many orgasms as she can stand in a single night within the late-night quietness and darkness of our bedroom, and want to keep pleasing her in this way too, my libido is stirred and satiated in a very different way. 

     I can get it up nice and hard for a long time, but my need and desire is for a more exposed and group oriented way.  Does this make any sense to my readers?  It's just how I'm designed, my nature, and I haven't been able to alter it even when I've tried desperately.  The unfortunate thing about being poly-oriented, in needing to be subjugated in this way, is that the responsibilities of family life and the concerns over reputation and things of this sort, I find myself daily concerned that if I were to engage in such practices as above and were it to ever become general public knowledge, this self-abusing scare holds me back seriously from ever exploring this healthy normal sexual nature of mine.  Embracing the challenges of being family-tied, made by loving choice on my part (for I do so dearly love my family!), also has its drawbacks to the exploration of self and does lend itself to secret mental obsessions over the expression of what is kept so repressed.  And, this does inform my behaviors and stress levels at times.  I want to be so much more friendlier and open than I am most of the time.  And, the saddest thing is, that I really don't ask much of life.  Just an opportunity or two or three to really experience in a safe and wholesome way some, or maybe many or all, of the sexual fascinations I have as a man who is sexually driven towards situational group sex experiences, exhibitionism, and sexual servitude. 

     With all the above having now been said, I have one last set of thoughts to share before taking you to the juicier tidbits of fantasies that harbor deep down inside my mind, which you will find in the paragraphs below.  And, my thoughts are ...  Until the opportunity is right and ripe for it, as determined by those who know me personally, then an expression of words and any self-created images here is what you will experience from me.  For those who take the time to even know this much about me.  I'm a realist, from enough knocks in life, so I'm not holding my breath on this one.  But, one can only hope that something special might happen someday, around the right company of friends.  Just, may it not be too long a wait, I ask .... pretty please!  Below are some specific sexual fantasies that I often have or have had that I wanted to share here with you.  Enjoy, and take advantage, I humbly ask.

Arousing 'Stipulations' That I Long To Have Said To Me (And, by those who say it, to mean it seriously.)

     Oh, would two or three couples say to me at the dinner table one night, "Joseph, we love you.  But, to have your dinner with us up here on the table tonight, you're going to have to go around under the table and savor the oral appetizers before you first.  And, you better not waste a drop!"  Please wear loose clothing and no undergarments for this.

     We've walked up to a dance or dungeon club, and the lady at the entrance taking the cover charges looks me over and says to me, "I'm sorry, but for you to get into this club, you're going to have to go across the street with your friends, take off all your clothing, hand them over to your friends, and then lead your friends back here to this door, before I even consider letting you in."  She pauses a second, and then adds in with a smile, "And, if you do, I'll let you in free of charge."  Oh, set me up to having to be naked in a public club all night, please!

     From friends, mostly couples, gathered together one evening for some adult chat time.  I have agreed to be there naked waiter for the night.  And, the hostess of this get together says to me, "I'm expecting you this night to be completely open to everything shown to you and everything done to you.  Do not refuse, and submit willingly to all that we ask of you.  This is an order, Joseph!"  And, to this I can only reply, "Yes, ma'am."  Oh, goodness, what possibly could transpire from a stipulation like this?!  This inquiring mind does want to know.

     She grabs my genitals firmly with a hand and leads me from the kitchen to the living room.  "Joseph, this is going to be embarrassing for you, but good for you ... kneel with me," she says to me, as she guides me into an on-all-fours position between two fully naked and definitely aroused men.  And, with a smile she says, "We want to watch you 'take it like a man' from our husbands."  Ruffling my hair with her hand, she says "thank you," and steps back to the sofa to watch with her girl-friends.  Oh, G!D, to ever experience this for real in a proper group setting!!

A Few More Informative (But, Explicitly Sexual Oriented) Fantasies (w/ woman group, mans lodge, and a spanking fantasy)

     Eventually, I'll get these back on here.  Please, be patient with me.

A Collection of Thoughts from Over the Years (that I hope you enjoy) - This First One (and Most Recent) is Titled: The Raw Honest Truth About Life

     The following paragraphs are selections of writings from a time way back when I used to have a lot more expressive and explicit photographs and video images loaded onto the pages of my personal web site.  At that point in my web designing, I really felt like I needed to show it all, unabashedly and in great detail, for anyone who would look and then, hopefully, read.  For I needed the exposure.  The kind like you see in the photo to the right, but in even clearer detail.  The knowledge that, even if I can't see my audience, they are still there taking a peek at my nakedness in all states of arousal, from not aroused at all to clearly orgasmically excited.  I still want that and, to a point, still need this, but so deeply would rather now have this attention upon me in person by others, rather than clutter my personal web with so many images that people forget to read what it is I have written here.  So, in this version of my personal web that you are experiencing, there is very little to show in the way of images that reveal me.  Only just enough for you to know what he looks like, the man typing these words onto these pages.  I hope with what I have displayed that you are finding quite pleasing.  I do strive to please in everything I do.  For me, this obsessive attention I give to expressing me through written word and visual images is way beyond just a need to exhibit myself before others and to express my view of things.  It has reached a level of religiosity, of spiritual struggling and awakening to the truth of how things really are in this world.  And, so I have found myself now hiding, online at least, from the view of others, in as much as needing and hoping that I will be seen with what is still here.  Does this dichotomy make sense to you?  I hope so, for I have been finding myself challenged with the reality that life is what it is, the biggest joke of all jokes and the joke's on us, as some would put it.  For I watch people every day, so serious about what they are about and about what they believe that they truly have no clue of life beyond this.  Caught up in the biggest fantasy of our lives, that the world is as we define it to be.  I have found myself doubting this considerably and, though very unhappy with this reality as it really is (rather depressed in fact by it), I must live it till it's over.  And, this too I have no real control over.  This life we live is the greatest every-changing ever-reinventing miracle in works.  It is absolutely amazing, and it is also quite fragile and impermanent.  So, because of this, this life we live is the greatest let down, as well.  For, we only think for a little while that we have any real control over it and that somehow something we believe in about us or about life has any eternal-ness to it.  You know this is true.  But, don't let me get you down by it.  Read first and, then, understand where I'm going with this. 

     It's a fact.  It's a sick joke, both the reality and the fantasy will live about it in our minds.  But, life is what it is and, as fragile as this life is, I still love my family dearly.  I still love my friends dearly.  I still go to work every day for them, so that they can buy the things they want to buy.  I do all these things out of a love that cannot be contained in the fabric of impermanent physical-ness.  And, I have hopes for them, my own fantasies of how their lives should turn out, and my prayers for this that follow every thought.  So, we are back to fantasy and the power it has to form our perception, decisions, and approach to this world.  And, ultimately, this page is all about fantasy, and the hope that some how and some way we might actually for a moment experience a piece of our desired fantasies about life.  And, this leads us to that ultimate and most basic of human subjects, the one I'm most interested in and that everyone's always talking and thinking about.  Sex and sexuality, fantasy and the hopes for reality.  In this web's case, as I am seeing it, needing it, and desiring it deep within.  I don't like embracing fantasy too much, but it is at the same time one of our greatest gifts as humans.  And, it is the catalyzing procreative source to most, if not all, our human endeavors.  Especially our sexual fantasies.  For without our human drive to explore everything sexually - like the way we men have throughout history stuck our erected penises into sandy crab holes on the beach, just to see what will happen ... and cum from it - we would not have created so many useful tools, inventions, and trains of thought to allow us to progress as civilizations-of-people the way we have.  So, the bottom line is, folks, that there is nothing new under the sun, so we might as well do what has already been done before and find pleasure in it.  In others, get together, have some kinky fun living out sex fantasies together (just plan the health and safety factors beforehand), get happy once again, and enjoy life.  For once it's over folks, is it really going to matter anyhow?  Only for you now, if you believe in some fantasy that has you holding back for that imagined reason.  The truth of it folks is, the generations to come are not going to be all that concerned or even interested in remembering what you did that night at that party or what you did that was so questionable to you in that bedroom with those five other people that you felt guilty for a week over it.  Only if you're lucky will they remember you at all, and then only through an 'un-attached to a life-of-experiences' photo kind of way, and what some descendent thinks that you were like.  That, unfortunately, is the reality and the joke we are all played with.  Does this not sound familiar to you as you look at an unexpected photo of your granny in mid-life in her lingerie stripping before the camera of her latest lover or your grand-daddy butt-ass naked at a beach with a pot belly and a shriveled-from-the-cold penis or your uncle's best friend dressed in women's clothing - yes, in seriously flaming drag hugging your uncle and with both of them with a beer can in their hands?  Let's get aroused folks!  These are actually good memories, opportunities for experiencing that have been acted out by living breathing humans, and they are good if we just allow them to be in our minds.  Tell you what, I'll give you my word here and now.  I'll show you my fully aroused penis if you'll ask me to parade around naked at your next house party!!  Seriously, think about it.

Thoughts About Having A Dick (otherwise known as a penis)

     I have a dick, and I fully admit that I enjoy showing it to others ... women and men, of all ages, ethnicities, cultural upbringings, political leanings, sexual orientations, and so forth. It's one of my physical needs, to be seen by others as I am in my naked birthday suit. I love being seen indoors and outdoors. I love being asked to take my clothes off in unexpected places and times, the more embarrassing and arousing the better. I love just being naked and unexpectedly visited by others, in person ... to enjoy standing, working, playing, sitting, and laying naked before others, such as yourself, as you look me over while we chat. This is how much I enjoy being present in my nakedness, as I am truly meant to be. And, the more often I have this opportunity the better. I personally believe that some of us should be required by law to remain naked in public at all times, relegated to a life of social nakedness by our social caste. I would so enjoy this.

     In this gallery of photos and movies, you'll be seeing a lot of me as I am in the flesh. And, I am very sure that you'll find this to be very pleasing. I want you to enjoy and share what you experience. For the situational act of being naked before you is very satisfying to me, both sensually and sexually. At times, it is clearly spiritual for me. It's wholesome to be naked in the presence of others, a deep self-esteem builder. It also builds moral character, living a life that has you so revealed day and night before loved ones, friends, and complete strangers. So, in my nakedness here, I do hope that my example sparks within you a deeper appreciation for our humanity and for your own physical-ness as a beautiful living breathing human being. I do so deeply appreciate the physical beauty of all people, all shapes and sizes, the gorgeous shape of women and handsome shape of men, without clothes on. So, if you feel inclined to reciprocate with your own sharing, let me know where I can take a peek.

     I have lived many years in a societal closet, due to professional/career concerns and living within communities that have discomforts over what is sacred and natural ... our nakedness of human form. And, through finding myself within this closet, so that I could step more and more out from within it, I've learned several important things about life. One, we are who we are as we naturally are, and no amount of idealism or clothes covering can hide, alter or, even, change this. Two, we make our own sacred spaces to be who we truly are. And, when we do so, we discover with deep appreciation and understanding the beauty of our natures ... how important and precious our individual expression is to the whole of humanity. Three, to be truly free, happy, mature, and on a path of purpose and fulfillment, we have to be true to who we are in all places and times ... even when we choose to be within a societal environment that requires us to momentarily suspend the lifestyle that is most comfortable for us (this doesn't change who we truly are to do so).

     More personal things I've learned and come to accept is that I am driven to seek, desire, and express the nude lifestyle ... in both a non-sexually aroused way and in a very pornographically sexually aroused way. Most of the time, I just want to be naked in the presence of others, whether they choose to touch me or not. I'm also polysexual, meaning that I'm strongly and evenly attracted to both women and men. I'll lick a pussy as quickly as I'll suck a dick. Though, I'll admit that I'll suck a dick more often, seeing how with women I prefer pleasuring her insides with something a bit more firmer and longer. And, having not a monogamous bone in my body, I am drawn strongly to social group situations that would excite my libido. Meaning that, not only do I enjoy the idea of having the opportunity to see, touch, smell, lick, and taste the physical beauty of several women and men at the time, but I strongly fancy the idea of being the sexual target of a group of women and men who all have their eyes set on using me to their naughtiest sexual desires and orgasmic fulfillment.

     I am married, in a socially traditional way, but how I am drawn sexually is how I'll always be, so I've finally learned. Regardless how monogamously I may behave at times, my needs are otherwise and it is in the moments that I am afforded the opportunity to experience what I am in nature in need of. Thank you, my wife, for this. Thank you, G!D, that I live in a country that allows for options. And, their is room for men (and women) like me ... the ones who are by born nature just meant to be naked all the time, serving as a sacred sexual prostitute for a community or meant to be a sexual slave or so forth and so on. You should read my sexual fantasies to better appreciate what I mean by this. Yes, I really am meant for a time when being a sacred intimate courtesan is a social caste in and of itself. But, I live in these times, when idealism has society seeing shame and fear where reveling in the 'sacredness of' should be. And, there is a purpose for this, for someone has to set the example and guide people on a path of wholesome self-awareness. Society needs women and men like me, to keep the social interacting balance that modern thinking has a tendency to get hung up on. So, here I am, before you ... in all my nakedness, in all my hair and flesh, in the fully revealed-ness of my thoughts, and the sensual and sexual-ness of my body.

     Having said all this, I'd like to share several special photographs and movies that are recent representations of me. And, with this sharing, I would really like to know from each of you who visit this site, what you're thinking and feeling ... from both the words and images that I share. At the very least, let me know whether you think that I should keep my pubic hair long or trimmed short, examples of both are below on this page. And, the anonymous form to send your thoughts are directly below this. Below the form are a few more thoughts I wish to share about human male anatomy, in particular, male sexual anatomy. I hope you'll take the time to enjoy my thoughts as much as you're enjoying my photos and movies. I strive to please in multiple ways, not just with my willing nakedness and mouth. And, please share my work as you so desire and see fit with everyone who you know would benefit from it and appreciate it. If you know me, always know that you have every right to take advantage of me in the ways that would be most satisfying for you. Please, do so.

Yours truly, .... your naughty and fully revealed web host.

Random Thoughts About Naked Obsession & Self-Esteem

     Curly red pubic hair on Irish-toned skin. This is what I see before me every day as I look in the mirror. Inexplicably, it draws me. And, when I turn around to observe the backside as well, surveying the manly curves of my buttocks, an irresistible desire to be seen by others as I really am, in my birthday suit, arises within me. The funny thing with this is that I’m not really attracted to light-skinned light-haired looks, at least not sexually. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll look and I’ll even savor if given the chance to lick. But, despite my preference for fuller body types, darker hair and/or darker skin, just love exotic looks, at times I wonder if I’m erotically attracted to myself. So much so that I want everyone who meets me to enjoy every inch of what I see in the mirror every day. And, this is so even when I’m not completely happy with my own looks.

     If I were to have chosen my physical features before birth, I’d be naturally a little more muscular and quite a bit darker in skin color. But, I’m not, and who I am as I am I’m compelled to share with all who’ll look upon me. Seeking the satisfaction from attention I just can’t seem to get from just myself. And, what’s even funnier is that I don’t go around flashing strangers or begging neighbors to visit while I’m naked. And, I wonder if maybe I should. It might just prove to be more satisfying than taking more photos of myself to place on the web. Or, being naked around the home, inwardly hoping and at times longing that a neighbor happens to walk in at just the right time to see all. This last one sure hasn’t happened in quite awhile.

     Maybe this longing is my way of relating to myself, of addressing my own self-esteem issues. I think a lot about this, even when I’m actively trying to quiet my mind with meditation. And, I talk to myself about this, too. Is this crazy? Maybe not, when I think of all the people I see every day who are obsessed with covering their bodies, the latest fashions and the latest make-up, uncomfortable with even the idea of being seen in their birthday bodysuit by others. And, oh how much I wish they would let themselves be seen! In my thinking, it’d be so healing and wholesome to do so.

     I am just on the opposite extreme of this obsession. I ain't trying to bugger anyone with my cock, I just want to be me and openly appreciated for it.  And, I just want you to socialize with me while I'm nude. Enjoy me as I really am, just as I'll enjoy you as you're most comfortable being in my presence. And, I find myself thinking just how much more enjoyable life would be for all of us, if we all took our clothes off an looked at each other’s birthday suits without inhibitions together. Much like how it happens with people I know and I as we interact in my nightly dreams. Even if just on occasion, what a relief this would be! What an opportunity for personal and social growth!

Thursday, March 29, The Purpose Of This Special Human Anatomy Page, Category: Sacred Sexuality, Self-Exploration, Adult Interests

     As an active supporter, meaning an example by lifestyle, of social nudity and sacred sexuality, wherein healthy explorative body-affirming open relationships are the norm, I feel it important to address an area of the body that is even often overlooked in its sacredness by the most tantric of sacred sexuality circles. This area of the body is often played with, sometimes with fingers or a tongue or a feather and countless other things. Expressions of this area of the body range from secret curiosity to a degree of uncomfortable disgust, often both being the case for the majority of us. And, being so, I believe, partly because of collective social thoughts and feelings about this area of our anatomy. This area of the body is most often spoken of in a demeaning way, being quite literally the butt of many jokes. ... Yes, I'm talking about the anus. And, the only other comparative areas of the body that draw as much mixed feelings and curiosity, that is often treated as shameful in our society rather than sacred, is the penis and the vagina. This page is solely and exclusively dedicated to the candid open discussion of the anus and the revealing of its rightful inherent sacredness.

     I truly and firmly believe that there is not a single area of the body that is not wholesome, sacred, and perfect in its design and purpose. Even the areas we may be more sensitive and uncomfortable about because of our upbringing. The anus is no exception to this, and if observed with open eyes and a no-reactive mind, the marvelous beauty of the anus becomes very clear. It is a marvel of creation, as is every other part of our body. And, I hope that through my focus upon the anus here, I might persuade you to have a more open outlook and a greater sense of respect and intimacy for the anus. So, let's actually take a look. Let's now take a real up-close look at this body part, and explore it together. Because I am true to my beliefs and am given to following through with my beliefs with personal action, we will take a look at my anus in photographic form as we discuss (click on photo to enlarge it). And, I would encourage you to take a moment afterwards, seek out a quiet place, and explore your own anus with a mirror of some sort. It is really worth doing and, maybe, you'll some day be as comfortable with this part of your anatomy as I have become with mine. I can only hope this for you, and bless you with this intention. Okay, let's now discuss the anus. And, then follow this with a few other fascinating thoughts on human anatomy and human self-esteem.

And, What About The Anus?

     I have thoughts on this, too! Seeing how it's one of the most neglected erogenous areas in our society as far as positive talk about it goes. Everyone has some level of attraction to the buttocks area, but consider the thoughts I share below, as well. The key to successful exploration of the anal area is to learn to eat a basically good and healthy plant based diet, it'll keep you internally clean I can assure from experiential experience, and learning how to properly clean the inner and outer walls of the anal muscles before exploring it. Master these two things and you'll naturally find all kinds of pleasures discovered with the embracing of this sacred sexual area. And, hopefully, you'll develop a proper positive and reverent respect for this area of the body.

The Sacredness Of All Body Parts, Exploring The Unrecognized Erotic Muscle

     Located between the shapely buttocks of males and females is the human anus. It is not quite centered, being found just a little below towards the crotch. Most human anuses are surrounded by hair, though some are bared due to the shaving habits of its user. There is a big debate as to whether it is cleaner and more pleasurable with or without hair around it. A debate that I believe will not be settled anytime soon. I personally like a little hair, nicely trimmed every now and then, but fully shaven is just as fascinating. And, you don't have to be gay or straight to enjoy the anus, by the way. You just have to enjoy human beauty in all its splendid many forms. The human anus is a set of circular placed muscles, designed to allow that final step to food digestion and consummation. It is in itself a very clean organ, that when well pampered and with a good diet maintains its state of cleanliness and health. Most of the time it even smells good, and great just after a thorough shower. Those with poor hygienic habits and typical modern diets have difficulty with this one, due to their uncomfortable-ness with the anus. The human anus is loaded with nerve endings, making it equally as ideal for oral pleasuring and fondling (and probing) as is the woman's clitoris and the head of a man's penis. I think G!D intentionally made it this way, to give us more variety and options. When treated with openness, love, and respect (and a bit of repeated curiosity), the anus can be a nice additional source of pleasure while lovemaking - being arousing for both the giver and the receiver.

     In one or two of my amateur self-exploration videos, I take a moment to actually show you how to care for your anus ... how to properly clean it, lube it, explore it, and so forth.  So, if you want to learn more, check these educational works out and use what I teach you.  (Oh, haven't seen an anus up close before?  If you want to see what mine looks like, click here.*  Trust me, it's decent and it's even beautiful.  And, if you've never seen the inner folds of the anus, then you owe it to yourself to look upon this photo and develop a fresh appreciation for this uniquely important muscle group. Now back to the subject here.) Though as pleasurable as it is to slide one's tongue off of a wet quivering clitoris or a hard throbbing penis, through the legs, and up between the buttocks cheeks to this under recognized and cherished area of the human anatomy, this is the one scene not yet explored in my videos. Meaning, there is only so much that I can do in a solo exploration of the body, and the best demonstrations are done with my hands, lips, and tongue (and whatever else you wish upon you) upon the body of another who is willing to allow this for educational teaching, exploration, and exhibition purposes. That is, when I have partners ready to help me take the next step of showing your special body areas being pleasured by me, for viewing on this web site, I'll then have every aspect of this explorative cam education covered. Any friends interested in a little adult fun? It can be arranged, come talk to me personally about it. Until then, you'll still learn a lot by what I do to myself for your edification, and entertainment. So, learn from what I have to share, and explore yourself and your lover with a deeper degree of self-respect, feelings of sacredness and intimacy, and a joy for the miraculous-ness of our physical-ness of being. Life is meant to be joyful and pleasurable. We are meant to share this joy with others on many levels. And, realizing the sacredness of every aspect of our being as humans only further infuses life as a whole with deeper significance and joy. Do this healthfully and with a life-affirming attitude, for yourself and others, and you will discover a new source of discovery and oneness that's been sadly overlooked by far too many. Do this for yourself, as I will and do when the opportunity arises. L'Chaim!  (I also have two educational close-up series photos on male genitalia, as well, if you're interested in exploring these areas up close online.  If you are click here and click here.)

G-Spots, A Scientific Sexual Non-Myth

     Ladies, I can tell you now that if you have not reached an orgasm through penile penetration and rubbing, there is a good chance that it's not your fault and not a fault of your physiology.  Why I can say this is, barring one woman I once knew in youth that had some serious psychological issues blocking her ability to experience pleasure, every woman I have ever focused my sexual attention upon through penile insertion has experienced no less than one to multiple orgasms through sexual intercourse.  My wife experiences this regularly, and she'll tell you to your face.  There ain't no faking the orgasms she now experiences with me, something she too didn't think she could experience.  And, I think I know the reason why for this.  You see, I have an unfair advantage.  No, it's not the size of my erected penis that's unfair, for I'm fairly average at six inches and one-and-a-half thick.  And, it's not even the slightly curved shape, which does create a slight pulsing thrust across the muscles inside the vagina during sex.  But, women's vaginal muscles are usually so strong with tension during sex that even the most swollen slightly curved penis will take it's directional guidance from her, rather than the other way around.  What makes me have an unfair advantage over most guys is that I like suck on throbbing penises, too.  And, because of this, my attention is not solely focused upon my getting a nut, having an orgasm at her pleasure experiencing expense.  Instead, for me, whether its in the mouth with a clitoris or a cock or whether its through vaginal penetration with my penis, it's all about focusing in on the feelings that my love organ is producing within her body with every angle, movement, and thrust.  So, I keep changing it up - the rhythm, the pace, the speed, the hardness or softness, the intensity.  All in an effort to find that right balance of movements and timing to get her hormones charging and her muscles tensing to the ultimate multiple climax.  And, in this process, since I'm focusing on her pleasure throughout this act, so much so that I'm deliberately paying attention to not orgasm-ing myself, I'm actively looking for that hardened bulb of tissue under her vaginal wall that, when rub just right, will guarantee she expresses sexual through words and sounds what almost never comes out of my mouth.  Yes, any woman can experience this, given the right exploration, circumstances, and man.  Or, possibly, right woman, if you're lesbian and can't use a man for just this and this alone.  (Just had to throw that in for a certain friend, who never writes anymore.  Wonder what happened to her?)  Anyway, yes, some vaginal orgasms are a mixture of internal stimulation along with pressure and rubbing on the clitoris from repeated penetration, and the balls (the man's scrotum) slapping hard against her ass (this does feel good to a man to do this).  But, if the sex is done right by the man, his focus on her and his waiting for her to have all the orgasms she wants and needs for the night and is now ready to tell him to cum for her, then she will experience orgasm after orgasm from that G-Spot within her.  I know, and ask my wife, if you doubt me.  The G-Spot is real, ladies and gentleman.  And, I'm liking that!

     You didn't think I'd end this page of writing focusing last on the anus, did you?  Not when I could be talking to you about how much I want to be 'sucking his cock and fucking her pussy, both at the same time in front of an audience of couple friends, who just happen to want to see us do it!  While, all the while, having my own dick stroked by a friendly hand or two.  Now, if somewhere in this, she has me tongue-xploring her anus, too ... and, then, has me demonstrating how much I love the taste of her and him, so much so that I'm licking for and swallowing every drop!!  Ah, fantasy, my fantasies, oh won't they please come true on a regular basis!  We only have the late-nights of now to explore them, you my friends and I.  ...  And, the G-Spot section above is really not a myth.  Go ask my wife!

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