G!D, Forgive Me Please! - For In My Innocence, I Have Sinned Against You  

     I have an apology to make.  An apology to G!D, to my family, to everyone that knows me, and to everyone that has met me but still needs to learn about me.  I am asking you to forgive me.  For, in my innocence, naivety, and self-oriented-ness, I have sinned against you.  It is not in what I do that I have been so wrong, so far fallen short of the goal, it is in how I've been going about doing it.  And, it is for this that I am truly sorry.  I lack diplomacy and tact, and tend to be just a little extreme in my approach to things.  I don't know how to lead into something or lead others into an understanding of things about me.  I tend to just do it, regardless the consequences.  And, through this I bring stress to myself and my family when others react to my ways, more in shock than anything else.  It's not that I'm doing anything wrong or abnormal, for my behaviors are always weighed with conscience and traditional morals in mind.  It's that I consider my needs first, before considering the needs of others and working for a balance between the two.  An example would be my naturist Freikorperkultur ways, for instance.  It is wholesome that I feel so free to be naked openly and unabashedly before others, not feeling the slightest bit wrong for being this way before anyone.  But, because I have failed to pave the way for a lot of like-minded friends, neighbors, and strangers to be around me, I have a tendency to need to be this way before others for reasons a little more than just for comfort. 

     You could say that occasionally I might be in the view of others momentarily more for the sake of exhibitionism, than just for comfort sake and lifestyle promoting reasons alone.  And, because I take these moments to be free without asking first if it is okay for me to be this way before them and without being concerned of whether their might be back lash for my way of being prior to being me, I commit the sin, the missing of the mark/goal, of being true to who I am meant to be in life.  I lack a little authenticity for my reason for being.  And, being authentic is truly my goal, just being.  I must ask myself, why?  Why don't I ask first?  Why don't I take the time and choose my moments wisely enough to pave the path for total acceptance of my nakedness and naked lifestyle by those around me?  What am I afraid of?  Am I afraid that others might say no and reject my nature for it?  The answer is yes, this is the reason.  And, I know this.  So, I behave without regard, and even at times force myself ... in a non-assuming and innocent way.  I know when I'm being authentic and when I'm behaving out of need alone without regard for the needs of others.  And, this is part of what depresses me in life.  And, I can only beg forgiveness from you, my neighbors, my friends, my family, and strangers.  And, for your acceptance of me, the naked Irish Jew that I am.  I strive to approach right and innocently.  But, I don't always achieve this objective, because I am human just like all of you.  I'm sorry, and I will keep trying to do this right.  Es tut mir lied!

                                                                                                            Tsefanyahu, the Born Nudist